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Discussion in 'Social Discussion' started by Eetha, Jan 12, 2016.

  1. jan

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    ask her what she needs. she'll tell you.
    often men and women process grief differently. find a space to process this the way you might need - (some men throw themselves into work, for instance - or a project)
    as well as being there for what she needs. You might also want to find a way to make a memory to honor their place in your life. Plant a tree, for instance. Something that remembers the loss.

    But as for her - just keep asking her what she wants and needs. and then listen:greenheart:
     
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    Second this @Metallica@Metallica . This kind of thing never fully heals, but the grief is needed, the support is needed. Maybe keep the door to the room closed until you're both ready to deal with it. It sounds like you're very aware of her grief, and trying your best to get you both through this. We're here if you need a shoulder for yourself, in private. Send a pm to me or CJ any time and we'll be there for you.
     
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    Did you ever go on in life and live and think you were a good person and think about the good qualities you have but then others point out to you bad things about you? And you realize you're an ass in some ways? And you've noticed it and wanted to work on them? And you want to work on it. But it's hard.
     
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    this being tired 24/7 shit is starting to fuck with me. I doze off at my computer, I have trouble enjoying stuff and having a good time because all I want to do is sleep. coffee doesn't help at all anymore. Whhhhyyyy am I always so tired?! :cry:
     
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    This will be long, sorry. TLDR; my dog is missing.

    My 17 year old geriatric beagle has been missing since Monday night/Tuesday morning.

    Contractors working on our roof left a gate open while loading and unloading supplies. They said they shut it, but in reality they only pushed it "closed" (there was a 6 inch gap, and it wasn't latched). I discovered the open gate in the morning. They swear they never saw a beagle. I believe them. He's old, slow moving, silent. He doesn't get excited about anything. He's the most chill dog that I've ever met. I'm honestly surprised he even left the yard- I leave gates open while I'm gardening or in and out of the house, and neither of my dogs ever leaves the boundaries of the yard. Once they "escaped" only to lay down on the front porch and wait to be let in the front door. We've lived here 7 years, had the fence for 5- and no one has ever gone missing.

    Regardless, he's still gone. He's old. He's deaf. The temperatures have been "okay", but it can't be anything compared to sleeping on top of my feet.

    I'm, of course, beside myself. One minute I'm crying at the drop of a dime and the next I'm angry. I basically just pace and stare out the window. I've walked our other dog 20+ miles around our town (which is only a square mile). I've been yelled at for trespassing while looking under porches and in open garages. I've been attacked by two unleashed small dogs. I've called every local business. Called the animal control. Spoken to our mail delivery workers.

    The day he went missing I drove up and down every street and talked to every person I saw. It was a nice day and everyone was out. (This is a big deal for me. I'm SUPER socially anxious.) I waited until that night, but I finally posted it on Facebook. I hesitated, because this small down has less than 1,000 residents. As I expected, the post has been "shared" hundreds of times- in larger cities that are hours away. I have strangers messaging me all times of the day and night telling me "call the shelter" or "leave a blanket out." I know this. I've done this. I continue to do this. Honest to God, I'm not an idiot.

    I know I should be appreciative of their help, and I am, but I'm also offended. I have friends and family saying "is he home yet?" once every few hours, even though I've repeatedly told them "I will tell you when he's home." I've been told "you don't seem very concerned." "When are you going to give up?" "Why didn't you post it sooner?"

    My two kids are... well, kids. They don't understand. They're mainly concerned with playing games and watching movies. They occasionally say things like "Jake is gone and Mama looked everywhere but couldn't find him" followed by "maybe you didn't look hard enough." "I really missed him, he was my favorite dog and now he's gone."

    My partner is concerned, but knows to stay away from me and let me handle it. Secretly, I'm furious with him. He was outside while they were loading and unloading. He didn't check the gate even though I specifically, repeatedly, told him to keep the gates closed because of our doggie door and the kids "helping" let the dogs out. Placing blame doesn't fix the situation, but it does make me really resentful. It makes me even more a "don't trust anyone, do everything yourself" type of person.

    So... I'm existing. I catch a few HITs and then throw them back. Dishes are piling up. I know it's okay to not be okay. I can't keep up my "normal" routine right now. I've tried to keep everything to myself as much as possible, even after the Facebook announcement. (I'm SO private. SO socially anxious.) It being shared on Facebook means that all of my Friday-morning students and their families found out, so I'm expecting a bunch of hugs and cards tomorrow during class that I'm not really looking forward to. I'm actually really uncomfortable leaving town, even though someone will still be home to keep an eye out. I really just want to pace the streets over and over and over.

    I hope I get to update/delete this soon with a happy ending.
     
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    So sorry :( I hope you're able to update with that happy ending, too. You're in my thoughts.
     
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    If anyone here happens to have experience with Prozac, please pm me, if you don't mind. I have a few questions.
     
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    I was prescribed prozac once when I was misdiagnosed with depression. Turns out I have GAD and OCD. Talk about pouring gasoline on the fire. I didn't sleep for a week.
     
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    Yeah I'm kinda worried about that. I'm definitely extremely depressed, but the anxiety is through the roof, and I can't sleep as it is. :cliff:
     
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    I know everyone is different, but for me, prozac was a huge mistake. That doesn't mean it can't be helpful to others. I'm always on the opposite end of the spectrum. There were times when I thought I was depressed. But that's because some serious shit happened to me, and I didn't know how to cope.
     
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    @Princess Gina Marie@Princess Gina Marie that happened to me on Prozac as well, but same, I have GAD and not really depression. If my anxiety is managed I’m not depressed, so you might be different. You gotta kiss a lot of frogs to find a prince with the right medications unfortunately
     
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    Totally what sucks about it. I'm depressed and have anxiety, and pretty much anything I take keeps me awake (but so do the nightmares from ptsd when I'm not taking anything). I just spend all my time thinking about how I'm not good enough for my kids, or feeling freaked out that something bad will happen.
    I also get migraines, so I don't want to take something that triggers one when I have a toddler to look after. So the pills just sit in the bottle while I freak out over whether or not to try them.
     
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    Hi

    I took it for a few months; for me when I was raised to a higher dose (i think 60mg? or 80?) it made my anxiety way worse and yeah, my sleep wasn't too great on it but it wasn't before either
     
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    I do that to myself all the time, paraylsis about taking something because of the bad things that happen. I had a complete meltdown taking the codiene cough syrup this winter, even though I was coughing so hard i threw out back and kept throwing up. My boyfriend had to coach me through. I don't have great advice on that, especially when having to worry about kiddos.

    But I always feel like if you're worrying about being a good parent, you're probably being a good parent. <3
     
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    Eek. That bites. :/

    This is only 10mg to start, so it may not be all that strong and I'm just paranoid, but idk.
     
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    Thank you :love: That thought is appreciated. And may have made me cry a little bit.
     
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    the majority of conversations between boyfriend and I is (are?) fighting. he constantly criticizes me, no matter what I do or don't do. If I clean the kitchen from top to bottom, all he has to say is "the living room is a fucking mess" but he refuses to clean any of it. It's like he's determined to be mad. I'm SHing for the first time in over 2 years and I dissociated yesterday for the first time in ages. It was only for like 30 minutes but still, it was in public and I hate it. I hate this. I don't understand what's going on with him or how to fix it, or if maybe it really is my fault.
     
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    it's not your fault. I don't know anything else, but it isn't your fault.
     
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