Oh man that's painful. What matters is you have your priorities set correctly and I'm sure everything will work out just fine for you. I hope to join you some day.
I think it was due to addiction withdrawals, getting sucked into turk so much that I began to ignore personal relationships, and so on. Taking a break was the best decision I made and I have went many months without a problem now. I gained the strength to throw the addictions to the curb. I hope to be funny in some way, though my humor usually isn't shared