Sorry that happened to you. Both of my grandparents, who did a significant part of my rearing, both died 3 years ago in November then December, one before each holiday. I didn't celebrate Christmas then and never started back up. I just think that there's a lot of self-imposed stress that goes on for days, all for one semi-great day. That's why I don't. I would if I was with someone who wanted to celebrate the way it should be but, I'm not getting into "commercial Christmas" ever again. That's why I don't. But, also, seeing the low income girl who works at the gas station across the street say, "I'm so sad because I only have like $500 to spend on my kid." I can't make that right in my brain. That kid is only going to use about half of what you get them.