and the house is empty enough as it is
and seeing her bed unmade for the last week
and knowing it'll be unmade for another several more days
it's very difficult not having her all the time anymore
her entire life, I did everything.
i never woke her mother up to change the diapers
I could even change them in the dark
her mother actually yelled at me once for taking motherhood away from her, since I just did everything
i didn't see the point of passing off a task, becuase if my kid needed something,
she needed something, and she didn't need me to push something off onto her mother
and for the last four years, i've been getting her 8 days per month.
sometimes less if her mother asked to keep her for a family event, or a trip to a zoo or something.
and i'm really sorry for venting and taking forum's space when the idea is to work