I'm failing miserably lol
A very short background explanation - I've had one kidney since I was 7 or 8 years old, it wasn't discovered that the event had killed one of my kidneys until I was 12 when my blood pressure was found to be super high (like 180/120 usually).
So I've been on meds since then to control it, and I have to be careful with the amounts of protein I get, no alcohol, etc etc.
About 10 years ago I had some issues and had edema really bad. My face, fingers, arms, legs, abdomen, and ankles all started swelling. I took diuretics and meds to reduce the swelling for around 3 months before it fully went away.
So yea. About a month ago, it happened again. I waited too long to go to the doctor. My ankles and legs swelled so bad I could hardly walk. Mostly I was afraid my kidney was failing.
While it's not where it should be, I did get medication and I've been taking it. But i feel absolutely gross and horrible about my appearance right now. I look so fat.
It got to the point that I couldn't fit into my clothes and had to start borrowing the boy's (because I am not buying clothes to accommodate this crap).
I know it'll be gone in a few months, but I got stupid and started restricting hard core to like 300-500 calories per day, as if that was going to help.
Bleh. Just felt like getting that out. I'm literally living on mashed bananas with cinnamon and random vegetables, maybe a little tuna. Drinking vitamin water zero. It's not working, obvs lol
I'm gonna start trying to work my way back up to 1200 a day, but ugh. I don't have the strength to exercise like this.